With Abandon

I recently read a book that profoundly affected me.  It’s called Dying To Be Me, and was written by a woman named Anita Moorjani.  She had a near death experience, and remembers it so vividly that she is able to tell her story in a way that I found to be completely real and believable.

This is a woman who was dying of lymphoma.  She had several tumors the size of lemons throughout her body.  Her organs were failing and she was given hours to live.  While this happened, she remembers leaving her body and visiting the other side.  She was given the opportunity to return to her body, and chose to do so.  Within days her tumors began to shrink, and within months she was declared cancer free by her doctors.  She experienced a true miracle!

She explains a lot of mind-bending things in this book, such as time is not linear as we perceive it, but rather everything is happening at once.  Every moment, at once.  So time isn’t passing, but we’re moving through time.  I’m still trying to wrap my head around that.

But the message that spoke to me so clearly is that illness is not caused by anything we’re doing wrong in the physical sense.  It’s caused by our fears.  Our ego can stand in our way of living a healthy life.  I believe this fully. I’ve been a very fearful person all my life.  I was terrified of going to school every day as a child.  I’ve always been so afraid of failure, which many times over has resulted in just that.  Last year, when I got fired, it was perhaps one of the scariest moments of my entire life.  I had let my bosses, my husband, and myself down so completely.  I was practically paralyzed with fear.  Two weeks later, I came down with thyroiditis.

After reading this book I’ve decided to take steps toward eliminating fear from my life, and enjoy life with abandon. I’m pretty sure I can do this.  I highly recommend this book if you suffer from any kind of stress. Let’s go easy on ourselves!

2 thoughts on “With Abandon

  1. Ev

    Glad to hear it. Taking the life is just a bowl of cherries approach is the best way to sail through this crazy experience. Laugh at everything. I should take my own advice.

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  2. yinmomyangmom

    Yeah, apparently my new determination to live with abandon is being tested. I got pulled over and the cop was a huge dick! It was actually quite funny to watch him in action! I can honestly say it gave me a laugh, not my favorite thing to laugh at, but it’s something I guess.

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